a “temporary” review
It’s been a lovely week in autumn. Few sunny days have certainly changed the mood for the week. Yea, it has been longgg..cloudy days since I don’t remember when. May be those are "nothing special" days that I wasn’t able to keep from flying. Or may be it was me that’s just too busy to notice what’s happening out there. Well, may be this one is fair enough… the whole school and work things (meaning those late nights and early days in cold) have made me running in my own time and consider those days as ordinary days that I don’t really wanna (or am able to) remember. So many things have happened since school started. While I’m tempted to count the figures in terms of how many assignments I’ve submitted and how many assignments to go, how many cups of coffee I have in a day and how strong it’s become, how many weeks (I should have started using "days" instead of "weeks" here) left ’till the final exam, etc. the world outside is running on, at least, another "time zone".
My bros got promoted. I’ve heard my friends (I meant A LOT of them!!!) are getting married soon. And those who have been married are having a baby. Some already delivered their babies. Some of my friends already got a job -am so happy for them. My k was having his birthday this week. We also celebrated the 25th and the 1st birthday of our friends in church yesterday and today. I heard that my ex-boss’ mom had passed away a few days ago. And today, my bestfriend sent me an sms telling that her relative had passed away too and that’s why she couldn’t go to her friend’s wed. In the meantime…I still have 2 more assignments to go and exam in less than 3 weeks. And I start to worry about getting a well-paying job that challenges me to develop myself more. And we start to make friends, three of us in the foodcourt, me and the other two girls from Holland and China. Never thought that working in a foodcourt could be this fun cross-cultural time!!
But you know what? When you pause yourself from running for a while…you must sense that autumn is not that dull and bleak as you thought. When summer was about to over, I was thinking why we should have winter. "I don’t wanna have winter, I wanna be in summer forever, or at least until I’m sick and tired of it," I said to myself. Wouldn’t it be lovely if we have summer a whole year long? Bright and sunny days, cheerful people in colourful clothes, late sunsets, people staying out late, etc. etc. But then I thought again… if we only had summer, it wouldn’t be special anymore -summer is everywhere. Everything has to be in balance for us to treasure each bit of it. You won’t have summer unless you have winter. Autumn and spring have their own stories. I was walking towards uni yesterday afternoon when I realised that I was smiling in relief. I was smiling simply because I saw how beautiful it was when the yellowish leaves fell down from the branches, blown by the wind. It was really amazing. Words and pictures won’t be able to capture it and re-tell the story. You have to be there and sneak yourself out of your own time shell to appreciate it. And again, autumn is not for you to keep forever. Those things must boil down to one fact…Everything is not meant to be forever, no matter how much we try to deny it by not thinking about it or by planning/aiming for great things in the future.
